21 February 2010

You know, I made a joke in Love Me Dead about the song "Breaking Up is Hard to Do," but it really really is. Now that I have, my insides hurt. Like I'm going to cry or vomit or both. I thought I had prepared myself for this, but there is a feeling of grief and loss that is beginning to overwhelm me.
I've hurt like this before, and I know it will eventually pass, but it still sucks. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I'm not sure if it's the loss of feelings of attachment or the fear that I hurt him. Either way, I feel like shit.

I think I need to avoid facebook for a while, otherwise it will eat away at me to read those status updates.

16 February 2010

novel ambitions

So now that I've decided what my life would ideally look like as ordered by MBTI, perhaps I should figure out what the narrative would be for my life as a Jane Austen novel? Too nerdy? Yeah, probably too nerdy. Also, this sort of time consuming activity is best done when I'm not up to my ears in costume design homework.

I have officially tried Easy Mac: the Alfredo edition and I have to say, it's not the worst thing in the world one could eat for a nearly midnight snack. It tastes exactly like regular Easy Mac, but if made with white cheese instead of cheddar. It doesn't really taste much like Alfredo at all.

11 February 2010

my life as MBTI

If I could order my life around personality typing, I would.

My best friends would be INFJs and ENFPs.
My roommate would be an ENFP.
I would marry an INFP.
Anyone whose's -N-J would make a great colleague.
ENFJs, ENTJs, ENTPs, ESFJs, ISFJs, ISFPs, and including the above mentioned would be included in my circle of friends.
I would love to learn from a (stable) INTJ.
I would stay away from the ESFPs, as they usually disappoint me.
And I'll probably avoid an ISTP at all costs. We wouldn't understand each other at all.

09 February 2010

I'm not giving up on greener grasses.

I'm so sorry, because I know that's not what you'll want to hear.

01 February 2010


I think I have a perpetual headache and eyeache. My eyes feel dry and tired and whenever I look in the mirror, they look it. I need to buy more microwavable meals so that way I'll eat better. I have vegetables in the fridge, but I don't really have the time to slice, dice, and cook them.

I'm trying to get enough sleep. But I'm not sure if I'm really at peace when asleep or if I'm just knocked out from each day's stress and going going going.

It's February. It's the first time I'll actually have a Valentine. I'm still going to hand out my traditional St. Valentine absolution. Mostly because this group of MFAs hasn't seen the glory of saintly Valentine cards.

My film needs extras, email me if you're interested.