31 January 2010


This was my verification word for posting a comment on Diana's blog. "usness"

What is "usness?" Is it the sense of you and I are us and here we are as us? Can we say "we have usness" or...? Perhaps there should be an "e" -- as "e" is often forgotten (mostly with my name) -- but insert this neglected "e" near the middle until this usness is useless.

Is usness useless? But if we contemplate utility in the matter of usness, we most certainly will miss the point of usness.

22 January 2010

shit shit shit shit shit

News: US supreme court ruled in favor of unlimited corporate funding in political campaigns.

Which means we're all screwed. Because now the politicians will tell us everything that the corporations want us to hear. Because now our votes and our voices won't really matter anymore. The country will become like Idiocracy. And it won't take 500 years to get there.

20 January 2010

never resting, never content

Can I please go back? I promise I'll be good this time. I'd give anything for that accent to roll cleanly off my tongue. There's too much to do that I simply did not do anything today. Well, I did draw a picture of a knight. Does that count?
All I can think about is all of the reasons why I want something else.
But then I remember
...and so I do nothing.

13 January 2010

Jane Austen knew her shit

"The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it."

I'm afraid I will have to agree with our dear friend, Miss Eliza Bennet. I have had a habit as of late to watch documentaries online through Netflix. Food Inc. and Michael Moore's Capitalism: A Love Story are two recent ones. Both of which make the point that corporate CEOs have basically taken over the government. In the realm of fiction, I watched Idiocracy with Darren. I don't even know what to say about that one, it's quite scary how prophetic it could be.

Sometimes it makes me wish that America's economy would just collapse already, like it's been threatening to do. Yeah things would be bad, but then maybe we'd really be free -- without a bureaucracy dangling the keys to the mythical American Dream.

What's that? Not a good idea you say?
Oh, okay then.

I'll just go dig myself into a deeper educational debt hole and wait it out.

07 January 2010

Over a year and half


Graduation into what?

My brain has turned to mush.
I live day to day, week to week, barely thinking.
Not the way I used to.
And yet exactly the way I used to.
Before Westmont.

The words simmer under a surface, yet struggle to get out.

In the end
I just feel stupid

Maybe I'm just lazy, because I have to practice in order to communicate

And if I am just lazy, then I have become someone I hate.
Always asking what can I do to get by
Never reading the newspaper
Always wanting to look a certain way
Never having enough things

I do not want to be a product of this America, yet I can feel its claws sinking into my skin.

Is it possible to live in such a way that I don't care what other people think of me? If you know how, please tell me.

I want to write more. Not just on this silly thing, but really write. What is it that I have to offer to this world?
I think I've completely forgotten.

I want my life to feel magical.

04 January 2010

Far away, far away
I wanna go far away
To a new life on a new shoreline
Where the water is blue
And the people are new
To another island
In another life
Now playing: Ingrid Michaelson - Far Away
via FoxyTunes



that is all.

The Section Quartet

I have a new favorite band.

This is The Section Quartet. 2 violins, a viola, and a cello. I discovered them by watching the film Whip It! (which btw is an excellent coming of age story. Ellen Page is fantastic as always). I simply loved the score to the film and was delightfully surprised to discover that it was a group, not just a person. Their album "Fuzzbox" is a compilation of covers of rock bands, to sum up. Hope you enjoy the video.